2005 A.D. ..the millenium was 5 years ago baby...
Consonant Reader,
*whoosh*
What the hell was that?
Ah.. That'll be the christmas holidays, once again flying by faster than light itself. Christmas holidays in which I was ill for a second time in ONE month, would you believe it? And on christmas day of all bloody days. It was rough.
..Oh gawd it was my first day back at school today. I felt just like the kids.. I got up at 6, but this was from getting up at 5, wondering how my first day back would pan out like. I've been watching the hours count down for days until my alarm went off this morning. I've literally been watching the days go by and been very conscious of it. My time at the moment seems doubly precious to me.
I'd never really felt like this about going back to a job before. I really can't put my finger on it, but christmas for me wasn't the most satisfying of my career, what being ill a second time and only getting into the swing of things just before New Year, I've been felt somewhat cheated.
And what with all the horror and grief in the world at the moment, the whole affair got put to one side anyway. Theres never a right moment for anything like that to happen but unfortunately it did.
And thats the thing that made me feel all the more reluctant to come back to school. With all thats going on in the world, I do feel rather small and insignificant. This, however has always been the case anyway and its only now that I've noticed this bug's life view. And it made me think very existentialist thoughts on why we do what we do in our lives when things like this destroys families and levels settlements to unimaginable debris.
And I was thinking about all of this whilst ill, over the festive season. So I didn't dare drink anything incase I started to feel that the end was nigh.
Having said that, today was fine, the kids chirpy, the teachers slightly dazed including myself. It was, on a complete flipside of things, nice to be back.
Undecidedly awkward forever,
B x.
p.s. Happy New Year everybodies, lets hope its a good one...
*whoosh*
What the hell was that?
Ah.. That'll be the christmas holidays, once again flying by faster than light itself. Christmas holidays in which I was ill for a second time in ONE month, would you believe it? And on christmas day of all bloody days. It was rough.
..Oh gawd it was my first day back at school today. I felt just like the kids.. I got up at 6, but this was from getting up at 5, wondering how my first day back would pan out like. I've been watching the hours count down for days until my alarm went off this morning. I've literally been watching the days go by and been very conscious of it. My time at the moment seems doubly precious to me.
I'd never really felt like this about going back to a job before. I really can't put my finger on it, but christmas for me wasn't the most satisfying of my career, what being ill a second time and only getting into the swing of things just before New Year, I've been felt somewhat cheated.
And what with all the horror and grief in the world at the moment, the whole affair got put to one side anyway. Theres never a right moment for anything like that to happen but unfortunately it did.
And thats the thing that made me feel all the more reluctant to come back to school. With all thats going on in the world, I do feel rather small and insignificant. This, however has always been the case anyway and its only now that I've noticed this bug's life view. And it made me think very existentialist thoughts on why we do what we do in our lives when things like this destroys families and levels settlements to unimaginable debris.
And I was thinking about all of this whilst ill, over the festive season. So I didn't dare drink anything incase I started to feel that the end was nigh.
Having said that, today was fine, the kids chirpy, the teachers slightly dazed including myself. It was, on a complete flipside of things, nice to be back.
Undecidedly awkward forever,
B x.
p.s. Happy New Year everybodies, lets hope its a good one...